Requests, Rejection and Support

  I have thought of a thousand different ways to write this.  Started and deleted it about half that and not because of any other reason than this is just something that I want to come out right.  I have been blogging for almost 10 months now and I still feel like a small and unnoticed blog(not that I mind this).  I have reviewed and posted almost every day for months, participated in blog tours, cover reveals and even hosted a few giveaways.  I would not claim to be horribly knowledgeable or even really organized when it comes to this blog.  Heck I spend a lot of time trying to make sure I have everything I'm supposed to done and advertised somewhere.  I envy the bloggers that have neat little side bars and  don't have to panic every time something needs a graphic.  Despite all this though I remember why I started blogging.  I LOVE READING!!  On top of that I love the people that are in this community and the authors I have gotten to meet and work with.   So I thought I would just put this out there and maybe give someone else the courage to start, the hope to grow or just the strength to keep trying.

  REJECTION.  

  We all hate that word but I'm not sure that there is any blogger big or small that hasn't thought of the word or even felt it.  I have had my fair share of it.  Be it in the form of unanswered emails or answered with a reason for the rejection.  Either way it stings.  I know it shouldn't but it does.  We all want to hear that yes when we write a publisher or author but lets face it there are a lot of us out there.  The one thing I learned real fast: IT IS NOT Personal.  Though it's hard not to take it that way.  I still get this "I'm not good enough" complex a lot of the time when I get no response or hear that for certain circumstances the books I requested just aren't available to me.  It's hard not to but then it all comes back to the start.  I didn't start reviewing so that I could get ARC's or anything like that.  Reviewing and running a blog was for me a place to share my love of books, authors and my undeniable love for covers :D.  When I get upset I try and remember this.  I would put money down that most of you started because you loved reading, or writing or a combination of the two, not because you expected to get ARC's or even become some big internet sensation.  We do this because we want to and whatever comes from it is just a bonus.  

Support

  My gosh the support you can and will find when becoming a blogger is undeniable and quite often the biggest reward.  This comes in the form of fellow bloggers, authors and readers.  Not one of theses is more important than the other.  Well they are all equal to me at least.  Each group gives its own little boost to blogging and means more to me than most of them know.  Though I may not have a huge group of fellow bloggers that support and adore me, I know that there are many that would offer kind words and suggestions if needed.  However it is the few that see something in me(still I wonder what some days) that have frequently kept me smiling and going when I thought that I should stop.  They help ward away the evil word above.  Though it still sucks nothing helps more than hearing kind words or extra reasons why it may not have come about.  I will list some of them but I know I will miss someone but those of you that have been there you all know I have serious love for you that wont change. 

            

Why?

  There are also moments that you will have that will make you feel like it is all more than worth it.  The comments from fellow bloggers or readers, receiving and review copy in the mail or a moment like this:

  This awesome fellow blogger made my entire night!  I was blown away and humbled that someone was actually excited to see me on THEIR blog!! As stated above I feel I am a smaller and not so out there blog but in this one moment I was so blown away that I was almost speechless.  There was also no denying the stupid grin on my face!! Just so you know Jessica runs the totally awesome blog: Just a Book Lover.  Or if you prefer click on her button.

  So this is it.  I have it out.  Not that it is great word of wisdom or anything horribly informative that you guys didn't already know.  I just kind of wanted to share what keeps me going and what I turn to when rejection gets me down.  If you have anything to add or share feel free to comment :D